Yesterday i was down with food poisoning and i couldn't really get out of bed... what a day for me... practically i was on leave to do my stuff but to my dismay... i have to bare with my illness.
I did made a call to Jess to chat with her... and i found out that i can't continue going after her anymore. I am probably exhausted already. I can't force someone to like me like the way i liked her... thats a fact... to except the fact is a very hard thing but it is the fact.
My propaganda " Change those things that cannot be accepted but accept those things that cannot be changed".
I am happy for the times that i have spent with her and the the time that is given to me to know her. I shall stop my journey here and hopefully in some other time... we can make things better.
Tomorrow... i will recover fully from my illness and shall continue will my life with all sails up and full speed ahead...
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
The Specialty In Her
Jess actually taught me how to think in a different point of view. When i first found out that she was a BA before... i was a little weird in feeling but then... i sat down again to think about it and i came out with something... 'why don't i think from the perspective of a model'... when talking about models... its all about beauty... rite.
I am talking like that not because i have a crush on her but basically i am thinking from a different side of me... sometimes i am too rigid about things.
She is special in many ways... i wouldn't wanna change what is in her as it is her herself that attracts me.
Bossy is one of the attitude thats shows obviously when talking to her. But i think this is the only attitude that will protect her when she is dealing with unwanted situations...
I am talking like that not because i have a crush on her but basically i am thinking from a different side of me... sometimes i am too rigid about things.
She is special in many ways... i wouldn't wanna change what is in her as it is her herself that attracts me.
Bossy is one of the attitude thats shows obviously when talking to her. But i think this is the only attitude that will protect her when she is dealing with unwanted situations...
A Lesson Learned!!!
Last Friday, Jess invited me to join her for a clubbing nite at Sanctuary together with her bunch of good friends. I went there at about 11 pm and we proceeded in... that nite was really packed with ppl.
I did not drank much that nite because wanting to look after her in case if she got drunk. Basically also because her friends were so overwhelmed with the bottles of whiskey. I can see that she was enjoying her nite.
1 question came in to my mind... can this kinda of happiness stay on for as long as it takes... you might wake up tomorrow morning having the hell of your life due to hang over. I see them as in my pass where i was also like that back in my younger days.
After the nite was over, i decided to take Jess home but her fren insisted the she must follow him... i did not wanna make a fuss out of anything and finally i decided to let her go with her fren. I did went over to Cheras to see her home but then i realised how stupid i am to do so... and i went home that nite not thinking of anything else...
I did not drank much that nite because wanting to look after her in case if she got drunk. Basically also because her friends were so overwhelmed with the bottles of whiskey. I can see that she was enjoying her nite.
1 question came in to my mind... can this kinda of happiness stay on for as long as it takes... you might wake up tomorrow morning having the hell of your life due to hang over. I see them as in my pass where i was also like that back in my younger days.
After the nite was over, i decided to take Jess home but her fren insisted the she must follow him... i did not wanna make a fuss out of anything and finally i decided to let her go with her fren. I did went over to Cheras to see her home but then i realised how stupid i am to do so... and i went home that nite not thinking of anything else...
Sunday, August 26, 2007
The Gal That I Met Recently...!
After coming back from a holiday in Taman Negara... I started contacting this gal... JESS. She has this tremendous outlook that always shows energy in herself to accelerate further. Though did not talk much to her during the trip, but manage to get her number and contact her.
First meeting... went to Cheras to pass over the trip photos to her and also her frenz... made my first mistake by inserting her personal photos into the CD as well... Damn!!! Found out that she has a dog named Rocky and it seriously looks like my beloved Jenny... same look in the eyes and also the fur colour.
First asignment... not really also la. Perfume spree in PJ... she wanted to get some fragrances and the price was cheap at the warehouse sales. Got her a CK Uphoria... but of course i was not the one paying for it... did not have a good reason to present her anything due to just known each other. Found out that gals seriously love perfume because i had to beratur like 10 rows of humans to pay for the perfume. Luckily i got a CK One for myself too...
First chat thru the phone... We started talking about almost anything... from her history to mine. I know that that's not all about her because she tends to like to be secretive at times. Found out that she was a BA before... my first impression was WOW and Ohh My God at the same time... and that kinda feeling was weird for me... coz i have never had this kinda feeling before. At first i was a little negative about it and she asked me why i had that kinda of thinking... i asked her what was the reason for being a BA... izzit the money, the look, the glamour, the feeling of belonging to a group that thinks alike, the urge of wanting something so badly, the need for using branded stuff, and many more... her answer was the fun... and that includes everything. She just giggle as i revealed the reasons myself. I also found that she loves her family very much and that she have two younger sis who looks and acts like her and both her parents that pamper her so much... can feel when listening to the speech...
First meeting... went to Cheras to pass over the trip photos to her and also her frenz... made my first mistake by inserting her personal photos into the CD as well... Damn!!! Found out that she has a dog named Rocky and it seriously looks like my beloved Jenny... same look in the eyes and also the fur colour.
First asignment... not really also la. Perfume spree in PJ... she wanted to get some fragrances and the price was cheap at the warehouse sales. Got her a CK Uphoria... but of course i was not the one paying for it... did not have a good reason to present her anything due to just known each other. Found out that gals seriously love perfume because i had to beratur like 10 rows of humans to pay for the perfume. Luckily i got a CK One for myself too...
First chat thru the phone... We started talking about almost anything... from her history to mine. I know that that's not all about her because she tends to like to be secretive at times. Found out that she was a BA before... my first impression was WOW and Ohh My God at the same time... and that kinda feeling was weird for me... coz i have never had this kinda feeling before. At first i was a little negative about it and she asked me why i had that kinda of thinking... i asked her what was the reason for being a BA... izzit the money, the look, the glamour, the feeling of belonging to a group that thinks alike, the urge of wanting something so badly, the need for using branded stuff, and many more... her answer was the fun... and that includes everything. She just giggle as i revealed the reasons myself. I also found that she loves her family very much and that she have two younger sis who looks and acts like her and both her parents that pamper her so much... can feel when listening to the speech...
Friday, August 10, 2007
Frenz 4eva dude...
In my current life... I have 3 dudes that are like bros to me... so valuable eva.
These dudes are named after animals.
The DOG aka Man's Best Fren
A fren who has been with me 4 well too long since our high school days. Being man's best friend, he has always been there for me no matter what kinda situation i am in. Good listener he is and always being patient in many ways. Famous for his blurness after getting to know the SOTONG or SQUID from the Kepong river. The inventor of NASI ABC and also the famous Ho Fun Suet in Puchong to Kepong.
The Cow aka GU GU
A fren since i was still 1 metre in height... has been staying in the same taman for ages... go to the same padang for basketball games... i still remember the good old days of the bicycle ride to school. A high achiever in whatever he does and being determine in everything. If you want some piece of advise and would not wanna pay a single cent... let me know... i can contact him for you. Most like by women for his STEADINESS... but never fall for one of them at any time... till now... you have found your gal dude... bravo!!! amigo.
The Cat aka CK... (excuse me! not Calvin Klein neh...)
Not much of a friend in lower secondary due to his low profileness and goodiness... but we became good friends during our final years in school. (He started to become nasty like me)
Have you ever met a cat staying on a mango tree... if you wanna see one... just let me know! Now currently found his great bebe and finally got tied up to her... but she can't stop us from meeting... kekeke. Famous for his soft heartedness and undecided mind... sure kena psyco!!!
What I have mentioned up there is just some brief descriptions of what i have found in them... but... no matter what happens bros later in life... you will always get a piece of my mind and heart because it is so hard for me to not becoming your friend. Cheers bro!!!
These dudes are named after animals.
The DOG aka Man's Best Fren
A fren who has been with me 4 well too long since our high school days. Being man's best friend, he has always been there for me no matter what kinda situation i am in. Good listener he is and always being patient in many ways. Famous for his blurness after getting to know the SOTONG or SQUID from the Kepong river. The inventor of NASI ABC and also the famous Ho Fun Suet in Puchong to Kepong.
The Cow aka GU GU
A fren since i was still 1 metre in height... has been staying in the same taman for ages... go to the same padang for basketball games... i still remember the good old days of the bicycle ride to school. A high achiever in whatever he does and being determine in everything. If you want some piece of advise and would not wanna pay a single cent... let me know... i can contact him for you. Most like by women for his STEADINESS... but never fall for one of them at any time... till now... you have found your gal dude... bravo!!! amigo.
The Cat aka CK... (excuse me! not Calvin Klein neh...)
Not much of a friend in lower secondary due to his low profileness and goodiness... but we became good friends during our final years in school. (He started to become nasty like me)
Have you ever met a cat staying on a mango tree... if you wanna see one... just let me know! Now currently found his great bebe and finally got tied up to her... but she can't stop us from meeting... kekeke. Famous for his soft heartedness and undecided mind... sure kena psyco!!!
What I have mentioned up there is just some brief descriptions of what i have found in them... but... no matter what happens bros later in life... you will always get a piece of my mind and heart because it is so hard for me to not becoming your friend. Cheers bro!!!
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